Back in the Game

After my set back with Mr.Saturday, I didn't waste any time trying to set up new dates, and meet new people.
I met a twitter musician friend, and caught his show at a local bar. It was nice to see some live music and make a new friend.
I met Pie Guy twice this week for dinner dates, and caught a bit of a local outdoor concert. We enjoyed some wine, and conversation.
I had a first date with Mr. Sushi. Was a nice date, at my favorite sushi place. Again, good conversation.
I went to an outdoor concert/festival on Friday. I had left my number with a guy from Match earlier in the day, with the hopes that he would get out of work early enough to meet me there. I was pleasantly surprised when he contacted me, and we ended up hanging out at the concert all evening.
I was invited out to dinner on Saturday by a guy from POF. He's a little older, but I had a nice dinner date with him.
Looks like my dating slump has ended... or at least I hope!

Mr. Saturday, part 2

After my last post, and sending the email to Mr. Saturday, some new information has come to light. First of all, he did not respond to my email at all. While checking my Facebook today, it listed on my page that he had changed his status to "in a relationship", with a female "friend" adding a smushy comment after it.
Wow, really? Just like that? He met this girl over the weekend, and just fell head over heels for her and decided to be in a "relationship" with her? OK...Thats fine, it can happen like that. I'm all for "love at first sight", and wish it would happen to me. What really just pisses me off about this whole thing is that he didn't have the balls to just tell me.
It was safe to assume that he had found a better option than me, when he stopped talking to me a few days ago. All I needed to know was that he decided move on. Why keep a girl hanging on, wondering what happened?
This is not the first time this has happened to me. I've had many a guy just stop talking to me after one date, two dates... weeks, hell... even a 5 month relationship! And I'm always left wondering... was it me? was it something I did? I will never know in most cases.
This time, I'm walking away thinking... he went with a better option. I'm not saying that this woman is better than me, oh-hell no! Just that she was better for him right now.
I'm right for someone, somewhere.....sometime. I just hope that time is soon!

Mr. Saturday

I'm sure some of you have read my recent Twitter "tweets" about Mr. Saturday. Things with Mr. S started out so well. Perfect first date, asking for the second date- and possibly third before the first date ended. We kept up a pretty consistent communication routine right from the beginning. He would text me in the morning. We'd exchange our good mornings, and describe what we were doing that day. Nightly chats online, and phone calls. This communication lasted until after our second date, which he ended early because he was getting sick with a bad cold. After than, he stopped texting me first in the morning, and at first I didn't think too much of it, thinking he was dealing with being sick and all. Over the next few days, he texts became less frequent, and shorter answers, less questions.
After not hearing from Mr. S for over a day, I sent him a text and got a short... almost rude response back. Well,that's it. I can assume he's done with me.
Today, was suppose to be our third date. I tried to just be above all of the games and move on, but I'm an emotional woman. I sent him an email. I told him it was obvious that he has chosen to stop talking to me, and to not pursue any further dating relationship with me. I didn't tell him I was upset or pissed at how he acted, I just wanted him to know that I was aware of his childish behavior. I guess I also wanted to get the last word in. ;)

Hopeless Romantic

I'm sitting here this morning, on the day of Modern Single Mom's wedding.. reading over all the posts of her exciting day. Reading about the tears, the dress, the flowers, the cake... the man of her dreams that she's finally met, a little later than she hoped, but still.... Seeing all the Twitter followers wishing her well, is quite inspiring.
Among those Tweeters are canadianbaldguy and momma_sunshine.
CBG and Sunshine always write amazing blog posts about each other. I feel privileged to be able to read from both sides of the story. Usually you don't get to hear the stories from both parties involved in a relationship. Most likely you're friends with one of them, so you get a one sided view of what the relationship is. It has been exciting, as I live vicariously thru their blog posts, to see their refound love develop and grow.
I hope, someday... soon.... to be able to share with you all.. my mushy romantic feelings. I want to make you all cry just like CBG and Sunshine make me cry! :)

Wedding Bells

Tomorrow, a fellow single mom blogger Modern Single Mom, is getting married. Tonight, she hosted her bachelorette party live on Ustream for all of us to see. Not a typical "bachelorette" party, but a great affirming moment between a group of Twitter followers. It shows the power of social networks, and the bonds that can be made thru them.
As a single mom, who is self employed, I find myself struggling to make social connections in "real life". Twitter has been an amazing experience for me. I've always been an online chatter, but I've made more connections with twitter people in the past few weeks, than I have in years on other sites. I've found myself in this network of amazing single moms, working women, business women, blogger dads, and creative people of all types. I find myself talking with people from all over the world, and if I could,I would visit them tomorrow!
The single moms that I have befriended are an amazing source of inspiration for me. I love to read about their struggles with raising children and paying the bills...all while searching for, falling in, falling out, or being in love.
It gives me hope to see someone like Modern Single Mom on the night before her wedding, so happy in love. She wished the same to all of the other single moms out there, and said not to give up hope... there is someone out there.

My Sexual Self

I struggle with something.... My sexual self is doing battle with my romantic self. My sexual self is powerful and hungry, and has needs! While my romantic self is waiting for Mister Right to come along. In my ideal world, I would meet Mister Right and he will fulfill my sexual needs. It's the meeting part that I have to make it through.
Being a very sexual creature, I am very open about sexual topics. During a relationship, this is a wonderful thing... open communication, discussing needs... no secrets. During the "dating" process, being this sexually open usually leads to wrong impressions. A guy finds out that I am a sexual person, and a switch gets flipped in their brain.... the "She's easy" switch. Once this switch gets flipped, it's hard to turn it off. Once a guy finds out you are sexual, like sex, and like talking about sex... well, that's all he thinks about! He stops thinking about you as any sort of "relationship" material. Don't men want to be with women who are secure with their sexual selves?
Why can't a sexually liberated woman be open and honest about what she wants with out men thinking that is ALL she wants. Of course I want to experience great sex... lots and lots of great sex, but I want it with a partner I trust, and care about, and hell... even love.

To tell the truth?

A twitter follower brought up the question...Do men see your blog and wonder if you will bash them after a date or break up? My initial reaction to that was "I don't advertise my blog on my dating profiles." The men I happen to date, aren't following my blog, and won't see my rants....but really, would it be so bad if they did?
I started thinking about it, and I don't think I "man bash" on my blog. I'm not using real names or saying "Josh from Lansing has a small penis!" (Seriously, I don't even know a Josh). I did tell the story about the ex bf and the penis extender, but come on.. that's just funny. Any guy who purposely tells his ex gf that he made THAT purchase, deserves a blog post!
I've thought about how much to reveal on my blog, knowing that a possible date might read it, or a future bf will find out about it. I don't want to feel like I am hiding anything. I have always been an open and honest person.
I'm writing about things that happen to me in my life, and right now, most of that involves dating. I'm writing about how I am affected by certain events in my life, and about how I feel. But more importantly, I'm writing about me.